Ah~! It's the greatest time of year (besides thanksgiving haha) and it's here, let us celebrate it! With everybody here, friends so dear, let me simply state it: Joy to the world and everyone!
rofl. rofl.

So I was looking at blogs (which i do all the time) and I realized that Christmas is only a few weeks away and that I am uberly excited.
I don't really expect to get anything this year besides one gift from the secret santa that my group is doing. Now that I think about it, I really want to change my gift choice for secret santa. Don't we need to write down what we want on a piece of paper anyways? Hmmm. Must talk to jinny about that.

Anyways, I was thinking how amazing it would be to travel.
I think I fantasize too much about living a different life that it's practically making me ill.


I really wish that we could do this to all the wacko videos that everlyn takes of us<3
btw, love the music.

Ahhh, the shops of london. How nice would it be to go there.
The girl wears the red barrett a lot. It reminds me of Mrs. Davidson singing, "She wore a rasberry barrett~~~" and me replying back with, "mine's blue -_-" Yea, she was referring to me, but singing an actual song by this oldie band.

Oh yes, did I ever mention that the girl in the video reminds me of Ashley Greene? I think it's the smile and eyes. They resemble each other.



Oh holy crap this scenery looks gorgeous. It looks as if the trees in the back had been cg'ed.




It's a plantation in North Carolina.
For some reason the tree's remind me of Emerson's Nature.
credits. liebemarlene.blogspot.com/




On to the wish list, yes?


I know tis' the saying goes to give give give.
However, it doesnt hurt to want want want as well.

Even though I wont get these gifts I still want to post them up.

These are in no order of importance.


- I want a DKS neckalace. Made out of real crystals.
Specifically this one: dskjewelry.blogspot.com/2009/12/liz-vang-for-dsk-jewelry-video.html

- Coastal Scents 88 Pallette which is also very cheap: $18+tax = $20.
www.coastalscents.com/cfwebstore/index.cfm/product/1677_122/88-piece-makeup-palette.cfm

- Marc Jacobs Daisy Perfume: $65 dollars. Dang pricey!
www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml

- Kenzoamour Perfume: also pricey
www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml

- Sponge Hair curler: $6 suppper cheap
sasa.com/SasaWeb/eng/product/viewProductDetail.jspa

- Cettua Trouble clear patch: $3.20 :D
sasa.com/SasaWeb/eng/product/viewProductDetail.jspa

Everything's beauty O:
Of course I wouldn't Mind getting a CAMERA (canon dslr :D pleaaaseee, or not. ahha)

Now that I think back I dont really need anything for christmas.
These are just things I want, not need.
I'll be happy if we can just move into that one apartment (that i like), be financially stable, get good grades, and ultimately have a fantastic year. (also get a good score on SAT!)


okay, cheerio darling(;
haah reminds me of the cheerleading squad in Glee.

My gosh, I think I just might have a girl crush on this one blogger.
I am absolutely in love with her vintage style and her looks.
I am also completely jealous that she's able to travel so much.
Thanks to her I found a lot of cheap things on etsy which I cannot wait to buy (someday when i get a credit card haha).

this is a video outfit post.
i never knew people actually made them.

I like whoever was holding the camera and i like the music.


fashion week.












I love the heels. You know me, i'm a ribbon person(:

Oh tee hee. I think the weather is making me very happy.
It is raining up a storm! Super gorgeous and the coldness of the weather is very brisk and clean.

I somehow managed to over sleep today and instead of waking up at 5:30am I woke up at 6:40am. Proceeded to panic, mentally slap myself, hurried to print out apah and started gluing flash cards. Then I was able to finish math in 10 minutes and attempted to cover the text book.

Forgot to study for english in the morning so i am now taking the vocab test tomorrow(: shhh, payne doesnt know. haha.
By some miracle, I was able to finish all my venn diagrams (5 of them) during SSR and turned them in for apah! AND she let us use our flashcards which definitely helped on the test because I did not read that chapter.

So obviously I am in a happy mood. Although I am very sleep deprived and plan on taking an hour nap after history and before dinner.
Speaking of history I was so tired in buer's class that I kept on putting my head down after every bullet point.
In physics I just slept for 10 minutes because no matter how smart Freeman is, he is so boring. I cant stand it. And his speech is too complicated to understand.

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It's so weird how shopping and clothes havent popped into my mind these passed few weeks.
Its as if i totally forgot I was a girl or that a building called the mall ever existed in the world. Haha.
I think I have curbed my hunger for the fashion.
Although I have found thousands of cute outfits that I am just dying to buy but haha. I can live without it.





So this unnie (not sure if she's my unnie or the ahjumma's unnie) sent this from Korea as a christmas present.
First thoughts: is it a blanket? and wow, it's pink.
After thoughts: It is so darn soft.
Seriously, it's like touching a cloud.
They are supposed to be pajama pants/sweats and they have bears on them with bow ties. Haha. So typically korean.

I'm thinking about what I should be buying for her because it's only right to give her a present back as well.
If she's my age then it'll be closer to relate and I'd probably buy her a scarf/hat/gloves since it should be freezing over there.


Speaking of freezing~ It's so cold that I feel hypothermia creeping on my legs!

okay hw then nap(:
some much needed sleep!

So I started this drama last last weekend and was not able to watch it the whole thanksgiving break or this week either because of school and I have no managed to catch up and am almost done with the drama! Episode 12!!!!!! AHHHHHH!


Okay so this is a stupid post but i seriously want to vent out.

Shinwow (lol the 'wow' party. inside joke.) he makes me mad cause he doesnt just confess already but i cant hate him cause it's just too sad D;
Go Mi Nam. Ughhhhhh so darn innocent and naive.
Taekyung. ughhhhhhhhh so ignorant and stubborn to admit the truth.
Girl that Uee plays. Ughhhhhhhhhhhh bitch has to get slapped. I am so surprised that none of them shove her or anything. She's no real threat! Throw that girl to the ground!!!


Lol. okay venting over(: must finish this episode so that i can sleep. haha.
I hafta get ready for church at 7am anyways which is like two hours from now.
So it'll be more like a nap than sleep.
Haha. If your wondering what I have been doing to stay up this late, well i refused to sleep without getting at least half of apah done. But then i started falling alseep and so watched an ep of your beautiful to stay awake. It worked and I, being the perfect multitasker, did apah while watching your beautiful(:

Finished the study guide, semi-done with the flashcards, must do the questions and vocab after.

I think after i'm done with episode 12 (im on part 6/7) im going to do the vocab and nap(:

sigh i didnt even do the officer hw that michelle wants. Gotta do that after church and before the meeting. haha.

busy busy weeked X_X


oh yea and im on a real guilt trip from all the bad things i did this week. ick.... going to clinic, not going to school, slacking off, feeling like crap T_T it's like a darn emotional rollar coaster ride.


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sorry for being a bad kid and sister.
i'll try to improve.
from now on no more missing school!
andddd no more hanging out.
i should try to understand the feelings of my dad and learn to respect his wishes.
like i said before, rebelling is below me and is a stupid thing to do.
i was in denial by saying i wasnt rebelling but i cause i was; just in a more... safe way of rebellion. haha.

oh wow, that is not a laughing matter esther D:<

efffff time to finish watching. LOL.

seriously?
What is up with my dad?
He just came in a minute ago telling me to never bring my friends over. Ever. As in never ever ever ever ever till' I graduate.
Honestly, just wtf is up with that?

I kept on asking him "why." Not really a question, more like a statement.
And all he kept on replying was "when I say not to bring them over, then dont."
Then i said, "you cant just say that. There has to be a reason."
Then he looks at me like he's at a loss for words and starts making things up saying, "it's noisy and dirty with them around."
In my mind all i could say was "wow."

First, we don't play around. We study. Today specifically I got all my hw done thanks to them.
Second, noisy and dirty? He's not even home. By the time he comes back most of them have left and I clean up the table.

If he doesn't want me to stay out then the only thing i can do is stay inside. But inside I have no other companion but the computer and he doesnt want me on that. Then what does he want? Me to shrivel up?

I no longer have my brother because of him and now I can't have friends.


UGHH! Just when I thought our relationship was mending he goes around and brings something up that sours up the mood.

I seriously feel like I am rebelling and I hate that feeling of guilt but the thing is, what he's doing isnt fair to me either.
And I dont ever want to go into a rebel phase. I've seen people go through that. It's stupid and annoying.

At least I'm not doing something bad like alchohal and drugs.

I try hard in school. Tell him the truth about everything.
why rob me of my buddios!! D:

ahhh eff... the anger wore off =_=

now this post seems absolutely ridiculous.
oh well, i'll just leave it up to amuse myself when i am feeling down.


time to review physics!



oh and yes, i will be listening to father. he wants them out, that means me too.
hope he's glad to see me after the sun goes down because that's the only time i'll have rides back home.
(not like we see each other any other time except late night and early morning) grrrr sour mood again.
=_= lets channel my anger towards physics now.

Oh yes, I still have it, the sickness that is. I've been sick for about a month now and today I finally got a damn fever.
I feel so hot and my head is hurting and it's taking me forever to just write one sentence. I feel so delirious.

I took a five hour nap and just awoke from it a while ago.
It was horrible. The first time I had a nightmare.
The nightmare was that I went to school and I was talking to Stella and Anne in the quad and then I found out that I didnt finish any of my hw and it was due that day and I screamed so damn loud in that dream out of frustration that people were covering their ears.
Yea, funny how my first nightmare is about school. Although it is right on the dot.
I've been thinking about school 24/7 and somehow I freak out when I think about how much hw I have or my tests.

I've been praying about it. I never get to finish the prayer though because I end up dozing off to sleep.
I really REALLY REAAAAAALLY want to go to church tomorrow and feel better so that my mom doesnt have to worry about me.

Starting from today I am going to try to be healthier.
In my family I seem to be the weakest one (now i am =_=) and I get sick super easily now so if I dont want them to worry about me, so I shouldn't give them reason to.

I dont have a job or money to provide for the family so the only thing I can give is my healthy and good grades. Two things that I suck at. haha.

oh man, it is so hard to type.....

bye byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Well it's that time of year again where family reunions are hard to ignore.
The usual happened during this festive occasion of pigging out.
Some fighting occurred, a little bit of tears, stress, some awkward silences but we ended it off with a nice feast and turkey.



So I arrived at Riverside the day before yesterday... ( i think. without school it's hard to keep track of time). I am currently staying at Jeannette's house (of course) because she is just a nice person to allow me to stay. And she has an extra room so I am sleeping on an air mattress, which honestly, is quite comfortable. It's hard to get used to at first but it kind of hugs me in all the right places. haha.

Yesterday night I spent some time with my mom. Her food is a god send and I love her bed. It is so comfortable, sturdy, and soft (and you know how much i love soft things ;D) I think what made our reunion kind of bad was the ahjusshi, ah yes, he is back in her life and is oh so annoying. He is a jerk and I wanted to pound him down. He bosses my mom around, calls her stupid, and talks to her in such a rude manner. My mom of course, being the one who has the same blood as me, does not tolerate it, but it doesn't mean he stops barking.

I got in a dispute with my brother about my living situation and how I was being selfish.
I've done a lot of rethinking and I am being selfish. All I keep thinking about is me and I'm just being a stubborn mule.
I need to learn how to think more of others. God knows how much I hate talking about this so lets change to another subject....


Today I watched ninja assasion with my mom. It was... well quite frankly I dont really know what to say about it.
I dont know if it was good or bad. Me, being the type of person who loves action/ninja/ninjustsu/cool effects thought that the film was kind of entertaining. Not really worth going to watch at the movie theater or worth buying but if you can borrow it for free why not.
Story line was cheesy and the blood could make a lot of people squeamish. I know my mom didnt like it. The sad thing is that she was the one that wanted to watch it. I wasn't so sure because I knew there was a lot of blood and I didnt want my mom to freak out but we watched it anyways and sure enough, she freaked. She was cringing most of the time.
All the head chopping, limbs slicing, blood oozing was a bit too much for me.
I just couldn't help smiling as I watched it. Haha. I think that makes me crazy.
I just watched it for the action and it wasn't that bad.
I've never seen bi act and after watching it i felt like watching full house AND that stupid rainism song was going through my head and even that little chest breathing he does. haha.

After we ate this chicken curry/spice thing that my mom made. She was just experimenting and it turned out great. I loved it and I was super full in the end. Then she forced me to read apah =_= yea... forced as in if I didn't do it she would yell.
Ah, a mother's love, how I missed it so.
Just realized how productive I was at her place.
Then I took a nap until it became too hot in the bed and my brother called me to pick me up.

Then I came back home to jeannette's and ate the left over mashed potatoes, stuffing, asparagus, and honey glazed ham.
There's more food and I think my brother is going to make pot roast tomorrow (maybe).
What I love about being here is that I have company and good food.

I kind of miss my mom now. Her bed was so nice. sigh....mommy TT_TT boo hoo...


Saturday I am going to disneyland with my brother, jeannette and their friends.

No black friday shopping for me tomorrow (i never go =_=) and it's a good thing I am not going because I really need to learn how to save that darn money. My mom's planning on taking me shopping sunday though =_= sigh.... I don't want her to spend money since I know how tight spending is but she thinks it's her job to provide all these clothes for me. She thinks that my dad isn't doing anything in my life. lol. Oh mommy, how do I persuade her not to?
Such a tough cookie she is.


Anyways I felt like I had more to talk about... well I had a dream and damin, everlyn, me and a bunch of rich boys were in it. haha. very weird dream.
and this dream is too embarressing for a public post so i am going to post it up as private(:
tee hee. you guys shall never see!

time to apah! I just realized that davidson assigned a crapload of work.

I can finally breathe again.
I'm coughing like hell and the mucus in my lungs wont let up but it's okay because having some good quality time with my buds made me feel better.

Update on the photoshoot that we had yesterday will be posted later with full on detail, pictures, and behind the scene footage.
haha. we are so corny.

Eunice - amazing photographer
Jinny - such a provider<3
Damin - amazing clothes/looks really good in them
Stella - sexy mistress
Everlyn - behind the scene footage/captures hella funny stuff
Lina - the sexy eyes and weird laugh. lol.
Me - Make up artist.

It was a lot of fun.
Hope we do it again during christmas!

Lol. So guessed what I watched today?



NEW MOON!


Hahah. I really liked it.

you: -gasp- say it ain't so!!!


Yup, I liked it. Honestly it stuck really close to the book which i quite enjoyed.
There were moments that were really lame/cheesy especially when Alice had that vision of Bella turning into a vampire and then you see that slow motion scene of edward and bella running in the forest. lol.. just wow, made everyone laugh.
Acting definitely got better. Thank god for that too. I was getting sick of seeing all frowns from Edward and self pitying from Bella.

The addition to the wolf pack brought humor to the story line which I loved. It was a great laugh. The pack really were like dogs. So playful. haha. Very humorous indeed. Not to mention they were all so charming.
The director definitely stepped it up with the lighting, make up, wardrobe, setting, and script. Definitely better than Twilight.


The scene where Bella meets the Volturi made me excited.
I liked the actor who played Aros. He was good and not to mention I finally got to see Dakota Fanning in action. She was really good although she wasn't on camera for long. Good thing we see more of her in the next film.

Okay and finally I get to say the two words: Taylor Lautner.
Loved him. Perfect Jacob. Period. Although I still think that Steven Strait would've made a good Jacob.
Anyways~~~



When I saw the basilica planned building in Italy I was totally consumed with art history. Lol.
I was like AH! COFFERS! lol. i freaked Dristi out.


AND YESS! I watched it with Dristi. Which was good because we are the type of people that like to discuss things and put little side notes in while watching the movie so we didnt annoy each other(:
We also have the same taste in food and music so it was a wonderful companionship.
Also, I just realized today that I have never ever EVER hung out with Dristi outside of school besides my own house. Lol... so sad, BUT she is moving to a neighborhood which is very close to mine so we'll be seeing each other a lot more now(:

OH yes, over all movie: 7/10
I finally found the appeak of Robert Patterson.

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Father is being more leniant for the past two days.
He's actually giving me money without any fuss and he's letting me go to a sleep over tomorrow.
I wonder what's up with him.
I have an unsettling feeling. Something like the calm before the storm.
It's nice and peaceful now but I can feel the tension building already. I'm bracing myself for the worst.

I've been worrying about something alot and it has to do with the blood in my urine.
I think I still have it.
What to do.
I can practially smell the blood. Friken gross.


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Next week is officially thanksgiving break.
It is a much needed stress reliever.
I am so glad that we are having this because I was stressing out so much.
I broke out all over my chin area. It was really pissing me off.


Worrying is so troublesome.


My sickness is finally letting up a bit. All I am doing now is coughing up mucus. Every time I breathe before a cough I can hear the echo in my lungs and the mucus all sticky. LOL. sorry for my use of words. I wonder if this is grossing you out.


Anyways I hope to dream tonight. I miss them.
I've had a few but nothing that was worth mentioning although I did have one about Taylor Lautner that was all too vivid. haha.

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Went to disneyland yesterdy and it was gorgeous.
I really wish there was a town that looked like main street.
I wish stars hallow really existed (from gilmore girls).

The fireworks were beautiful and it looked like computer graphics.

Castle was superb.


It looked as if Icicles were on the castle.

It was also snowing! (: fake snow that is. haha.

Wish you were all there.
Clarisse and Renee were killing my feet though (they are my newly obtained purple boots in which i love) They were not, however, good shoes to walk in for a long time. haha.
Very laboring.


Then we ate some beastly turkey leg that was all too salty for us.
This was my thanksgiving feast with my other family(: (i have too many other families lol)
Tyler demolished his leg.


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Oh yes! And I forgot to mention my hair cut!!

Before:
(everlyn's bday. love this picture<3)





AH! my long chocolate brown hair!



After:
short with bangs.






NIKE OF SAMOTHRACE! apah~ lol.
It was so random to find this. Nice going tiff and tyler for spotting them out.
I was too slow and obviously apah hasnt gotten that into me like it was for them haha.


Wow, just realized how picture and word heavy this post was.

I dont think anyone will read this whole thing except me(:
Which i always do after posting.


WATCH NEW MOON!! -swoons-

have a safe and happy break guys!
time to party.

Is it weird for me to love these children even though they aren't my own?
Even though I have never seen them face to face.
Never talked to them or touched them, and yet I want to embrace them.

Honestly, they are just so beautiful and the most beautiful kids I have ever seen in my life.
I think Stephanie is really getting to me. She has such a way with words.
I can tell by the way she writes and the simple usage of words and photos that she adores her children.

She's spreading that affection to me as it slowly creeps up into my heart.
Haha. This is without a doubt super cheesy, but I like this feeling.
It's warm and tingly and sweet.

I think it's the mother within me.
People have said time to time that I'm a motherly figure. haha.
I guess that is true, it is so true.

Ah, it is finally time to hang out with my own mother. haha.
Once, again good night to you all.
Just realized that each stanza has three sentences in them.

Oh dear me, I'm in trouble.....

not really, but I got a good scolding from my momma.
She's worried sick about my..sickness. LOL. wow I used that word twice in one sentence.
I was wondering why she was so worried about a little cold and was telling her to calm down and that everything will be okay, but then she brought up the time of when I was sick during the summer and how that sickness then turned into me having to go to the hospital and then the blood......

When she mentioned it i was like "oh yeaaaa, totally forgot that happened."

Seriously, I really did forget that that even happened. Haha. It's funny how the people around me are more worried about it than me. I remember Paulina mentioning it and wondering if I still had it and I looked at her in such a confused face until recollection hit me. Lol. Funny though, funny. I can almost remember the expression on my face.

But... is it weird that I am not even worried? o_o
Rather, I'm more relieved that I havent been going to the hospital because that would mean the bill would sky rocket and I do not want my mom to be in the situation where she would have to worry about paying for me. Oh and yes, for the last time if you are wondering, I still havent gone to the hospital to get my check up like I was supposed to back in August. A lot of people have been asking me that. We neither have the time nor money.
No wait, scratch that. We do have the time and the ride (hello~ brothers) but father won't pay for the money and I definitely do not want to dump it on my mom when she already payed for 3 of my check ups (and she will be paying for my flu show next wed -_- I told her I dont need it but she is insisting).


I hate being so weak physically.
Hate it sooooooooo much that I lifted weights today. Hahah. or at least attempted to. My brother took it with him to jeannettes's =_=.
So i strapped on 2.5lb weights on my arms but they got in the way of typing and so i took them off. HAHAH.
And I had bacon today... so fail for trying to be healthy.

But yea, I hate being sick with a passion. The most annoying thing to have happened to me since High School started.
It's frustrating and very painful. =_=
I couldn't even go to church today because I was curled up in a ball on my bed sniffling (not cause i was crying but because my nose was so clogged up). My back still hurts and I still have stomach pains, not to mention my nose is still runny.




I gotta ask. is it weird for me to say that I finally feel human now that I'm sick? Haha....
Like, I've been sick before but not to the extent of having to go to the hospital and to the point of crying in bed until now.
So when I finally go it, it just made me go, "wow... really? so this is how it feels."



For some reason I feel like this isn't the end.
I kind of feel like it'll escalate until I'm on my bed limp and exhausted.

Now, let's hope that doesn't happen.


You'll pray for me wont you?
Yes?
Good. I'm counting on it.


have a good night guys<3
time to end this precious weekend with the mom I love and adore.

Before the accident with her children.



After the accident with one of her sons.


Stephanie is such a beautiful person. I find her blog to be so lovely and her posts are amazing.
She got into a plane crash accident which left her in a comma because of her painful burns that covered her whole body.
When she awoke after, she looked completely different and now has to care for herself carefully. She has to scrub her body gently daily and sometimes it makes her bleed a lot.
She is so strong and wonderful and her children are gorgeous.

one of my favorite posts:

"I asked Mr. Nielson with tears
in my eyes if he could still see me.

He was shocked at the question and slightly confused. But he answered anyway; he said he didn’t compare me to anything especially my appearance before the accident.

Maybe he doesn’t, but I do.

Sometimes I actually scare myself.

Yesterday at the grocery store a woman turned around to me in the
line and with an exhausted look she blurted out:
“Oh, I feel just the way you look!!”

I wanted to curl up and cry in the fetal position right there in isle three. I looked away and tears stung my eyes. I wasn’t prepared to have confirmed to me what I had felt earlier that morning after I had scrubbed my fragile body in the shower until it bled.

Part of the deal I chose, I guess.

I guess I should just suck it up and remember my blessings.

But part of me hurts for outward beauty.

When I lie in my bed as still as can be, I feel like the Stephanie before. Out my eyes I feel just the same. I feel perfect. My skin isn’t strained and my joints don’t rip my thin skin over and over with each movement.

That’s why getting up is hard to do.

I had another perfect moment today as I lay on my couch.
The sky was a lovely shade of blue. My weeping willow’s leaves glowed bright yellow and it moved so slowly and graceful in the autumn wind.

I was so quiet.

I was so still.

And the Lord was talking to me. He was whispering to me his love for me. He was proud of me and I felt my blessings restored to me. He is so real. He is there. He sees so much more than we do. He is the light and truth and anything that is good that I have, is of Him.

And then, I felt beautiful."


pictures of her adorable/beautiful/gorgeous children.










She and her husband made the most beautiful babies in the world.
I'll be absolutely content when I grow older and have babies just as cute as them. haha.
I can tell they'll all be real beauties when they grow up<3
Can't wait to see them at age 16!

follow Stephanie's story and her children at her blog(:

www.nieniedialogues.com

god bless her!!

I am so surprised that I have this much will power to not use up my saved amount of money to go shopping.
I've been doing homework all day, with frequent breaks but things seem to be going well(:
I am still waiting for the procrastination to kick in but lets hope not. haha.


Dakota Fanning is so pretty now. I like how she actually looks her age. Can you believe that she's only a year younger than me?!
Her electric blue eyes are striking and something that I really want. haha.
I also love her Leopard print dress that is from TARGET (yea, amazing).




Boots are so cute.


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So my dad said (well i overheard) that we might have to move because he isn't getting any money because his business isnt doing so well.
We dont have enough money to pay for rent. I'm looking at my room and it's depressing whenever I think that I might have to leave this.
I love this place that i can call mine. But alas, all good things must come to an end.
If we do move I am just going to ask to live with one of my friends. I don't think I could bear living with the two in a smaller living place. Ever since my brother left I haven't been doing so well and it's always quiet and awkward. Besides, I think it would be best for them to live in fullerton where they have their friends. They only live here for my schooling anyways.


Tutoring job is tomorrow. Hopefully she doesnt forget.




Oh yea, I have no idea how I am going to pay for my permit test/DMV driving test. So much money.
Gotta save, gotta save, gotta save. T_T
So much for spending after I save 500 dollars....

That I want to watch so bad.


This movie looks so beautiful.
I really cannot express it in words. It's definitely my type of film.
I love these kind of genre's and the CGI is great.
I am anticipating this movie so much.
Hopefully it doesnt suck ass.


Graaaawr. They disabled the embedded link for Prince of Persia so here's just the regular URL.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZ7Li5w2I-k
Once again, CGI looks really good.
Disney is definitely stepping it up and i love how the director is jerry bruckheimer.
Also like the fact that the narrator is the girl and not the typical guy narrator that we here in every other movie. lol. dunno why, but her voice makes the movie sound more suspenseful. also, when will the narrator guy ever die? he's been here for like years.



Looks like a funny indie-ish chick flick(kinda)
I like how the best guy friend seems to like the girl at first, but totally turns gay after one kiss. haha.
hilarious.

I like how when I am half awake/asleep during all nighters I write the weirdest things down if I have a pen in my hand.
Seriously I remember I was still awake but kinda sleep and I was even dreaming and I snapped out of it because I need to do work. I look down at my english cornell notes and find out that the conversation I had in my dream was written down on the paper. Freaky? Yes. Annoying? To the max.

Seriously, I cannot describe how many times this has happened to me in the last two weeks. (partially because i have ended up staying awake all night till morning). But my papers have way too many scribbles on them and its frustrating. The half sleep/awake dream writing incident happened yesterday too while I tried to stay awake and yet failed epic-ly.


Okay. Random babble but I just wanted to say something. lol.

OH yea! The stupid battery in my Ti Calculator popped.
I was doing math and all of a sudden I hear a BANG sound.
It sounded like a gun shot but a little quieter, but boy did i jump.
Then I looked around for the sound and started to hear a little sizzle and it was coming from the calculator. I put it towards my ear and heard it sizzle and finally popped open the battery thing, definitely thinking that I was imaging it, but Lo and Behold, there it was. The mini popped battery oozing acid with a sizzle sound. It was cool (kinda) and very annoying cause i had to clean it and get a new one upstairs =_=



okay. yup that was my day today. very boring.
cannot wait till tomorrow cause imma just nap until wed (no school!)
hm this weeks seems to be going quickly(:

Boiling crab is such a good restaurant. It was so filling and the flavors were good.
The best part: we ate with our hands! Haha. Not to mention we put ketchup on the table (there is a white paper/wax covered sheet covering it) and we made hearts and then dipped our fries in it. haha. I felt so wild and free eating with my hands. Haha. It was messy, but not in a disgusting repulsive way. I like the fact that we wore bibs. haha.


ah... brb. going to edit later with photos(:

So anyways I have been eating out every day so far (it's the influence of anne&josh) and I have definitely gained weight. =_= a lot of it.
I also did a two day all nighter one after the other and I am dead tired. I would be sleeping right now only if I weren't waiting for my dad to come so I could talk to him.

Today I skipped first and second period partially because i didnt do my hw in those classes and was not ready for the test in period 2. The other reason was because I did not finish my flashcards for apah. Speaking of apah, even after doing an all nighter and sacrificing two classes I think I failed the darn Rome test. It makes me so angry.
This, however, is also keeping me on my toes and tomorrow I am going to start the Pagan chapter.
Wed is a no school day! hooorah!


November 13 (friday) after school is going to be movie night (aka Dream up) that our club created. We are going to play games, watch a documentary, watch up and bond~!!
So much work though. We have to get ready for awareness week @_@


After is Everlyn's Birthday party and guess where she's taking us? 



It is gorgeous and she wasnt kidding when she said it was right next to the beach.
I honestly cannot wait<3

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Two things that have gotten me through the day:
Vampire Diaries and Supernatural.
VD my newest obsession. Supernatural my long obsession.


"Oh my god. It's him. It's him, it's doctor sexy."
"If I remember correctly what makes doctor sexy, sexy is his cowboy boots, not sneakers."
lol. seriously, such memoriable quotes from dean.
He's the goofy, bad boy, perverted older brother, but even he has his obsessions. Haha.
Man, he is just so darn charming.


VD! Last weeks episode Vicky died (thank you god) but this week's ep Lexy died (WTFFFFFF DAMON!).
Yea. Totally pissed me off. i loved her character and her personality was a golden girl. She was bad ass but in a good way(; totally loved her. And she was pretty and rocked her long hang and nice bod. Good style too.

This weeks episode made Damon into a total jerk (opposite of last weeks), made stefan actually likeable (show he is 130+ years old in real life he's 27. thats older than i thought) and made Bonnie even more cooler with her ability to make things float.
AH! i wish i was a witch. haha. oh man, that reminds me of abigail and betty all over again.

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Finally my dad has come home.
Time to sleep.

oh yes, and pictures.





We saw a barney doll completely compressed against the glass of those claw games and we thought it was hilarious.
He looked super pissed, ready to swing him arm to punch the glass.



The result of 2 all nighters. I looked super tired today.



The food was so bomb and I LOVED the fact that we ate with our hands. Haha.
I felt like a kid again. Nothing mattered but the food and that's how eating should be!

Bill came out to be 97 dollars and 32 cents. Yea... we were taken aback when we saw those numbers.
Was very unexpected and we spent 15 minutes trying to count enough money for the bill. in the end we were 10 dollars short so Ryan just payed with his credit card and kept the cash. I felt kidna sorry for him. That was a lot of money. lol.
Anyways it was totally worth it and a must!
Definitely going there again soon! hopefully with my bro's next time(: <3

3 A's, 2 B's 1 C.

I have never had a C ever in my high school life. This is horrifying.
Stupid math... grr... I've never done this bad in my life. Darn you junior year!

Saturday is my studying day at Long Beach Town Center (LBTC) with IreneLee. I haven't hung out with her for so long. She is such a great study partner. Seriously, with her I know I'll do my work and the atmosphere at the Barnes n' Noble at Long Beach is good. Very studious atmosphere.
I'm going to study all my subjects, because boy do I need it.

Ugh.... such bad grades.
I know this shouldn't be freaking me out to the point of sadness, but T-T a C...how the heck am I going to raise that up before Semester ends?! That's like every saturday studying and thanksgiving break!! D:

Speaking of thanksgiving, I found my little planner thingy that I bought in summer and it is a god send. Love that little pink booklet.
Keeps me and my schedule organized. Now I'll never forget anything.

Tomorrow is late start.
That fact that it is, is making me procrastinate like craaaazy.



sigh, betty, school is hard :[





ps. did i mention that we watched the crucible last week?
great movie and play. the actress who played abigail and the actor who played john proctor and john hale were amazing.

also watched beetlejuice for the first time last last weekend and i loved it. so cute.

Wow so currently I am at Anne's house.
We baked cookies, I studied for english, and took a nice half hour nap.

I was planning on sleeping over her house without telling my dad because I work better and actually put up some effort into my school work when she is around. I didn't think my dad would really do anything after 10 because that means that my dad doesn't care but voila! He actually called fifteen minutes ago.
When he did call I was going to make up a lie and say that I was with my brother and that I would get home in the morning.
After 10 minutes of bouncing off ideas and really bad lies (that anne gave) I just decided to tell the truth.
That was....

(some of anne's lies: tell him your on an adventure and that you'll be right back. tell him that the lady told you where they were at and that you are walking to them right now. tell him you're on your roof doing homework....) the list goes on....

Anyways I told him

"I am studying and doing homework at Anne's house."

he said "why are you at her house? you cant study here?"

"no. it's really hard and if i go home i'll fall asleep."

he said "its hard so you have to stay at her house?"

"yessss (i sounded super tired) appa...it's hard. I'm not lying. Trust me."

"...... fine."

"okay. see you tomorrow"

-hangs up-


after that i literally put my hand to my mouth and said, "OH HO HO HO HO HO~! IT WORKED!"

that made anne have a good laugh ;D

anyways i am still at her house, we are gonna study, and imma leave her place at 6-ish..? cause she has zero.


time to study english +_+


good night people.
this is the end of my stupid random post.

darn anne's computer keys suck....

My first time trying to win something like this. Lol. I figured why not, and decided to give it a shot(:

She is giving out:

blagh. i dunno what to talk about today. I'm kinda alsfjslda right now. I've been having too many different emotions swimming inside of me this week and now they kind of all smooshed into a ball and I feel so... icky. Well not icky, it's just that my inner core doesn't feel right. I feel troubled, angry, irritated etc...
I guess to put it all together I'm just really tired. I don't like how I am giving up so easily in school either. It's junior year. The most important year and I choose to slack off and take crappy classes, I change my schedule several times because of my fickleness, and I am still unsure of a major which is really bad because I still have no idea if I want to do art or writing for the rest of my life!
Gosh, and my grades are just pissing me off! ARGH! dammit... and that is why after I finish this post and check all my other bookmarked usuals, I am going to finish my hw and study my ass off. ahhhh shhhhnap sticks... totally forgot that we turned in our physics binder today =_= ugh... guess i'll just study using the book.. man, how tedious.
Sigh, I kind of feel stupid for complaining because I know a whole bunch of other people who are taking harder classes, but I just can't help it. I need to vent because it just wont stop. It's like word vomit. Grr... my back hurts and I feel so tired.


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Errr...

SS501's new album and song. It's not that great and the style is not to my liking either. Black eyeliner needs to be used correctly, my friends. Not used to Hyung-joong's new hair. He's a pretty boy, not a rocker guy.

Chorus is catchy though and that is the only reason why I am putting this up.


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Played today and ate so much at Hometown. I am surprised at the amount of money in my wallet, however it is going to soon run out and I am worried about that.
The tutor girl still hasn't called me back which is kind of irritating. I really want to start this tutoring thing because I need the money. Sigh, I'll need to talk to the counseling office about this. Maybe a faulty number was handed in.

Gotta get my act together!
Focus!!!
oh man... i'm about to fall asleep. shoot. it's too early for that.